Resolution? Perhaps.

March 19, 2010 by Leif

I don't write much in terms of this blog. Aside from my constant stream of work I don't have much to say and I have no desire to bore folks with mundane details of sandwiches, intrusive thoughts, gardening, or anything else.

I suppose I could rant on politics. That's always a good time especially if a bizarre and terrible comment war gets started. Maybe religion too. Who knows? But that's still not for this section of my site. The following, however, is:

Last night I foolishly deleted all of my emails. Not just some, not just a lot of them, but all of them. Obviously I'm a bit upset, especially since those emails covered about the last 11 years of my life and since I work in the field--I'm currently attempting to recover the files (oddly enough there has yet to be any success). But maybe this is good.

As it is with any correspondence the contents range from personal to business, love to hate. anger to sadness, etc. etc. etc. and I suppose the ones I'll miss most would be the ones to my wife (both before we were married and after). In spite of all else, I'm a romantic at heart and hold up love and life and all that other stuff to the highest of ideals. So trivial things like losing emails will get me a bit downtrodden.

But, then again, the notion of having the last 11 years of life erased is incredibly freeing. There is no record now or, I should say, no record that is visible to me. I have my journals, sketchbooks, etc. and those are far more personal than emails ever could be. There no longer exists bizarre declarations of love, angry friends, refusals, etc. In short, there is no baggage.

I'm certain I've lost something but does it matter? And what have I lost?